Wednesday, July 30, 2008
The Hello Goodbye- oh wait no
I am rather happy today. I found Lydia's graduation present!! (:(: It was found hiding amongst Joel's picture albums on the dining table (if it can be called that anymore). Thank you God.
I think my time back here has been rather hectic, and cooking is suchhh a hassle, especially deep frying. Ironically, if you don't want a mess, you really gotta have your whatever literally swimming in the oil so that it does not splatter so much. I smell like oily man right now. I think i will set aside a t-shirt specially for cooking....... and shorts maybe. But it is winter. Oh winter is such a bother; you function at like half the speed you would normally, especially in the mornings getting out to greet the cold (or have the cold greet you rather) and late at night trying to get into bed. You gotta ease slowly beneath the covers, systematically warming each segment up so that it does not feel like you just jumped into a bowl of ice. Even the houseflies have been hibernating (and growing EXTREMELY fat. EXTREMELY.FAT). I just hope there aren't any hibernating by my window, ready to take flight and invade me one morning. I would die; I hate houseflies so (and cockroaches. and most insects. and.... spiders). This is really the coldest winter I've experienced here in Brisbane anyway, and there's been no running for me at all, as such. Mum helped me sign up for 42km, and it does seem like a pipe dream right now, amongst other things. But as with all things, the mountain ain't gonna move if you ain't gonna move yourself to move it.
Slipping, sliding, sometimes plain bamboozling my way through, I have to move onwards this time round. There are always things to be done, and work to catch up on, and sleep times to adhere to. Tonnes of pictures are begging to be put up, but right now it's all being put off. I just said my first 'no' tonight. Let it be so. If there's something you want or need which I did not do or give you, holler, or superpoke me. Or stab me, like Joker. Ooohki dokes. Ta!
now where was my book on assertiveness...
paN!cker lost it at 7:36 pm
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
kaya bread
i made it to this morning's 8am lecture today. i was rather happy about it. then i proceeded to fight the z monster till 12pm, with sporadic bouts of note-taking. gary was feeling "unwell" and did not turn up. must have been his comfy bed doing all that unwellness evils to him again.
NEED TO SLEEP EARLIER! 1am is not good enough. i quite like this loaf of bread edwin passed me. it is le yummy. alrighty, the brain beckons; pinky had better take his leave.
paN!cker lost it at 1:09 pm
Thursday, July 24, 2008
apologies to my mouse
i am truly sorry dear mouse, for slamming and banging and flinging you wildly on my table/palm/bed when i realised you were not working today. even after all the disconnecting and reconnecting and pressing 'connect', it failed to hit me that for all the laser light you were giving out ..................... your batteries really were otherwise quite dead. thank you for not giving up the ghost on me after all that abuse. hope you like the new heart i gave you.
p.s i like the way you move (on my screen).
paN!cker lost it at 10:39 pm
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Who do you say I am?
"But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?" Simon Peter answered, "You are the Christ, the Son of the living God." - Matthew 16: 15-16
God is very interested in who He is to us, on an individual basis. It doesn't matter what the model answer is pertaining to the question of who God is. We have enough model answers floating around to fill 43975136 oil tankers. At the end of the day, after all is said and done, God wants to know who He is to each one of us, and what He means to us. If He is, as the model answer states, the Christ, the Lord and Saviour of me, then my life would be evidence of that. If my life does not reflect such a statement, then all my claims to be christian would be empty, bearing the form but lacking the power thereof.
We need to proclaim with our lips BUT infinitely more importantly, with our lives, that Jesus is the Christ, Son of the living God, come down to redeem us from ourselves.
Oh yeah ...... I'm safely back in Brisbane by the way, and school has started. Haha. Toodles.
paN!cker lost it at 6:55 am
Saturday, July 19, 2008
None The Wiser, Twice The Loser
I walked a mile with Pleasure,
She chatted all the way,
But she left me none the wiser,
For all she had to say.
I walked a mile with Sorrow,
And ne'er a word said she;
But, oh, the things I learned from her,
When Sorrow walked with me.
//Robert Browning Hamilton
If I chose to walk with Pleasure, then not only would I not learn anything valuable, I'd be missing out on what Sorrow could have taught me. While I'm not advocating endless misery and torture and strife, there really are some things that good times cannot teach you. Learn to thank God for -everything-, the good, and especially, the bad, bad as that sounds. So that means you can thank me now for telling you this piece of news, even though it sure ain't sounding good on your ears.
paN!cker lost it at 11:07 pm
Thursday, July 17, 2008
familiar but
i might've done this before, but it always feels the same. it's just not the same as a benign bus ride to your local school hostel. if planes had no windows, it'd be like movie world, where the whole scene changed when the elevator doors opened again. if not for the concepts of space and time, the elevator (or plane) would be just like a mystical snuffbox. two entirely different people groups, climates, communities, yet accessed through the same entrance/exit. i think it's more commonly known as globalisation.
paN!cker lost it at 1:06 am
Monday, July 14, 2008
retire this attire
for this satire tires; lift me up, up out of this quagmire.
that shall be my theme for this semester.
paN!cker lost it at 12:25 pm
Saturday, July 12, 2008
The Crux
It is in this.
"Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it." Romans 7:20
paN!cker lost it at 3:32 am
Thursday, July 10, 2008
argh they do, yes they do
but why do holidays always do this to me!? gather your thoughts. andy mckee rocks. tommy emmanuel .... he pwns.
Thank God for aunty Alice's successful operation. We're still not in the clear yet, but we hold on, and trust.
paN!cker lost it at 1:19 am
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
run on, for a long time
i ran tonight, after approximately 30000 ages gone by. i ran my broken engine to bits and pieces. it felt bad, but it felt good. i ran in circles, but i hope that's the turning point.
paN!cker lost it at 12:01 am
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
hope
where does my help come from? i lift my eyes to the hills. where does our help come from? we lift our eyes to the hills.
paN!cker lost it at 1:44 am
Monday, July 07, 2008
Rediscover Yourself
Things have been moving at a pretty fast rate, and there are a zillion thoughts to pen down. I met up with the cousins on saturday and it was a pretty good time of catching up and doing silly things. I mean, I'm glad for the relationship I have with them, and the silly Blind Mice games we used to play during Chinese New Year at grandma's. We realise now that the room has shrunk; as such, no more Blind Mice. :(:( We also celebrated Roanna's birthday in advance and took silly pictures. The love of Christ compels us, and it compels me, to do something to reach out to them who do not yet know Christ. Many times however, it just remains as an incessant thought that fails to make it out of the backward recesses of the mind. We're meeting this Friday though!
Today, Shannon's mother passed away, shortly before 5am. It was announced in service, and it was a bit of a shocker to me because they'd just visited his mum on Friday and I didn't know she was at the end of the battle. During the wake and memorial service we just attended, I realised how the single child needs to be strong for the family because if one parent goes, the other just lost a spouse and there is only you left. Invariably, it led to me pondering about the future and my own parents and how I would take it. Of course, it'd probably have to do also with the cause of death, and everyone prefers natural causes over unnatural ones. During cell time earlier in the day, I also enjoyed the time we could join our hearts in unison to keep Shan and his dad as well as Weiliang and his mum in prayer. So many things are happening now, and the bullets are coming in thick and fast. Weiliang's an only child as well, and his father is not a believer yet, which makes it harder on him, for there is no other immediate family member who is a believer, apart from his mum. I can only keep praying and hoping for a miracle, that the test results would be in his mum's favour.
There are things that need doing, stuff that needs settling, a God who needs seeking, so no more Fallout 2 for me.
What treasure are YOU STALKING today? What is your OBSESSION? What fills your mind and causes your emotions to stir? For it is in all that, that there your heart is.
I'm just listening to this kid's rendition of U2's With or Without You from facebook and it is, simply, amazing.
paN!cker lost it at 12:10 am
Saturday, July 05, 2008
weeeeweeuuuuuuueweeeee
fallout 1 is complete. the master has fallen. i love fallout. it is THE best rpg ever ever ever.
anyway, stuff has happened, as stuff ... always does. quite a few things have been going on since i've been back, and they've been good, while other areas haven't been quite that good.
1. amaria's surprise party on saturday. AWESOME bonding time with daryl in a toight-like-a-toiger cardboard box. let that be the first and last time. haha it was such a queer surprise, and a rather sweaty one too. the MAN time with daryl and horribly carried out kidnap on amaria aside, there was a lot of fun to be had that day. ruby was back already and that was one of the more surprising of the 20 surprises that amaria received that day. (:
2. heartbeat flashback after, at p.ian's wife's (cecilia) place! i laughed so hard i cried........ till the parts with me inside, then..... it was just the crying left.
3. food poisoning recovery celebration on sunday with laksa and fishball mee at ghim moh. i even had some of carole's tang yuan which she couldn't finish! after that, went with daryl to novena to get my textbook and buy some stationery. i got edwin's eraser! novena's a cool place. my other two textbook's will find me well in australia.
4. joined amaria's extended family for their customary birthday celebration dinner at pastor rennis' place on tuesday evening. josh, daryl, and i made the perilous journey across much time and space to arrive at tampines, one of those planets near earth. the food was le bomb. i had a great time, and the manner in which the celebration was carried out was an eye-opener.
5. i have new glasses, AND contacts, for sport. nothing more shall splatter and smush up in my face from now on.
6. i just got back this evening from pulai springs in johor. it was a lazy hazy day where we fell asleep (all 3 of us) watching kung fu dunk. my laptop isn't very loud and there were noisy jap kids in the reading room, a sister teaching her brother (or trying anyway) english.
7. i'm reading a book! whooooooooopeeeee. wild at heart by john eldredge i think. shao wei handed it to me just 'fore i left for australia last feb, and i'm only reading it now. don't even get me started; there's tonnes of books i have all over that need reading. mehhh.
8. i met sean, shi long, eve, jac, jason on wednesday at funan macs to "check" results together! unfortunately, edwin helped me check the night before and after some smartypants deduction and hinting, i kinda knew my results already.
some other random bits would include my army OC getting on facebook and messaging me, my meeting some cousins tomorrow at grandma's, and an upcoming night safari trip. this holiday dwindles down. i'm ready to collapse in a heap in bed. i leave you with abs-training material.
paN!cker lost it at 2:14 am
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