Thursday, June 10, 2004
when all crashes down
strange unrealistic hopes.self deception.a reason to start over anew. a wake up call.
What i had hoped it would be was so far from what was to be. i cannot say how challenging it is to keep myself in check, to say that YES we have as good a chance as anyone else, to believe that we can make something happen, that we can look respectable as a team. what happened today was pure wakeupandsmellthecoffee. at least vik and i have a clear picture how it's gonna be from here till the end, results wise. but it also brings me back to the focus of this event. it's not to win the tourney, not to manage some CM4 dream team, but really to build inroads into the lives of those in the team. it's to forge strong bonds in the team, and eventually to learn to work as a team on the pitch.
i cannot describe how bad it was, but we were up against very strong opposition, with a few key players from st. gabriel's in the opposition team. we bungled up in defence, had no midfield, and an offence that never needed to go to work because we couldnt get the ball to them. we scored an own goal, and i had the ball cleared direct into my face by my teammate who was a metre from me. yeah, just to give you an idea, just an inkling. the tournament matches last 6 minutes a half, and our team played that first before we had the 11 a side friendly where we all joined in(those >17 guys). i can only be grateful for the short matches now, because we only lost the first one 2-0, with a goal comin in each half. our 11-a-side friendly was erm a little uh, more vibrant, with a 7-0 drubbing accomplished in just under 40 minutes of play in both halves. yes, the match where the older guys like vik and his friend and i played and where things were supposed to be a little better. we expected a defeat, but not THAT kinda defeat!
things will have to be worked out, the players will hafta work harder than they ever have before. frankly, to be honest, not all our players are made for soccer if you get the drift. but they've got commitment and i can tell they want something better. God gave us this team, and it may not be something big, or something at all, but i believe we can mould them to be a competitive side. God can make heroes out of zeroes, and aye! seems we're just that right now. i pray we can lift their spirits tmr, as well as our own, because the tourney aint even started yet. there is a lot of work to be done, but i know it'll all be worth it, and i know at the end i'm gonna love these guys to bits ;)
i guess today's result showed me where our focus should lie, instead of the tangible results. we need to foster close bonds with the team, and the team needs to bond more amongst themselves too which is more important. we need to learn how to work as a team, because the dynamics of soccer on the field is crazy and not quite your street soccer court. most of all we wanna show the love of God to them so they know why we still bother after today.
God's miracle to me today must have been the specs haha. after getting rammed in the face, i thought "that's it ..... new specs chris, new specs.... no way it survives." then i got my specs back and put it on, and it was the same as before! nothing twisted, nothing missing, the world wasn't slanted. our team must have looked quite a sight today, but i really am gonna try my darndest to get these guys working smoothly as a team, even if they may not be the best physically or skills-wise out there. just like my mum says, the results aren't as important as the effort you put in... :o) vik + i really need God's help now, and maybe that's another purpose of this team of "misfits", to help us rely more on God and less on ourselves.
in the player: smalltown poets - every reason
paN!cker lost it at 8:22 pm
Friday, June 04, 2004
it's been a long time
to those who haven't seen me in a while, no i'm not dead and gone or anything like that. it's just angelfire gave up on us and the angelfire banners sprinkled at strategic points in my blog were kinda depressing and i didn't wanna blog no more. that's pretty lame for an excuse, yes even for an excuse, but that's how it was. :o)
i'm goin driving, and lo and behold my full-time work starts 1st Oct, it's almost like life counts down to that day, that fateful day when i will leave all my possessions, or almost all, to run into the welcoming arms of the singapore army. my goal is to get my license before i go in, which means really me passing on my first attempt, IF i get to book a test date before 1st oct.
in other things the soccer event is really the main thing on my mind at this moment. i really hope we can reach out to these BB boys, and it hasn't been easy tryna get this sun's friendly going. i hope we get the numbers and can have a fulfilling match. hopefully ACS can be reached tmr and we won't hafta travel to NTU to play this match. ah just pray that God will have everything smoothed out and we manage to touch the lives of these boys. don't know what to expect of them, vik + i are meeting the whole jin gang at henderson sec tmr at 2. on one hand i wanna do my best and see them do well in this event, on the other i wanna tell them that the end result isn't really important as long as they've given their best. quite a few are 13-14, soooooo we've got a really young squad on hand.
other than that i've been staying home and playing ragnarok on and off a bit.
paN!cker lost it at 9:19 pm
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